As I am entering into my final year of college, I have been reminiscing a lot about the adventures and trials I have had that got me to where I am today. Now, as a soon-to-be college graduate, this is an open letter to my freshman self.
So you’re moving to college. A different town, new people, a roommate you don’t know, and leaving the people you know behind. It’s okay to be scared. But you should also be incredibly excited—you are about to start the craziest journey you’ve ever embarked on.
I know you’ve never had a roommate, but trust me: you’ll love her. She is amazing and one of a kind. And even though you don’t end up being best friends, she will forever be one of the most cherished people from this point in your life. She will be there for the wardrobe fails (and save you too many times to count), she will let her closet be yours, will tell you you’re beautiful, and be there to ask how your night was when you don’t get back until 6am.
You’re going to feel like you’re so alone. I promise that you will be okay. You need to be alone and that feeling of aloneness will bring you closer to yourself. You will meet some incredible people that will impact you for years to come. There will be drama and heartache, laughter and late nights. The first year is unforgettable. I promise that no matter how hard it feels now, you will look back on it with the fondest of memories.
You will feel more unintelligent than you’ve ever felt before. That’s okay, too. I swear you’re not stupid. You’re beautiful and smart, and you’re doing better than you think you are. Your professors are your anchors—go to their office hours, email them constantly, and don’t be afraid to have a mental breakdown (or three) in their office. They are life savers, confidants, and your biggest cheerleaders. They want to see you succeed and they want to get to know the real you. They know your struggles and will push you more than anyone else, because they know you will be great. Don’t let the struggles and challenges discourage you.
In less than two years, you will meet the man of your dreams. It’s going to be a difficult road and not an easy relationship. Don’t beat yourself up too much—you are good enough, and you deserve to wait for the man that will complement you and treat you as you deserve to be treated. Your relationship will be difficult. There will be many sleepless nights, tears, heartache, and trials. But there will also be adventures, laughter, kisses, and the greatest love you have ever felt. You will fight for the relationship harder than you’ve fought for anything else. You will be supported and cherished by someone truly grateful for who you are.
You will travel across the world. You will see things that shake your world and make you reevaluate your life—you will remind yourself that the people and relationships in your life are the only thing that last. You will have amazing jobs and internships.
I can promise you that you will feel like your life is falling apart and that nothing is going right. But I can also promise you that it’s not falling apart—it’s falling together.Keep your head up, stay focused, and don’t forget to take a break. You’re doing great, and before you know it you’ll be wishing you could do it all over again.
Your soon-to-be college-graduate self